Pretty in Pink – The Call

Before I knew, while I was waiting, waiting for the results, I journaled: “No matter what happens, Lord, I know you are with me always. I pray that I allow others to be Christ for me and that I may be Christ for others. Holy Spirit, guide me. Grant me Wisdom, Fortitude, Knowledge, Understanding, Counsel, Piety and Fear of the Lord. Into your hands – into your heart -Lord God of Hosts, may I place all my trust.”

4:50 pm January 25, 2017. In the quiet of my bedroom I got the call that one in eight women receives: “You have breast cancer.” Almost two years out, just typing those words brings tears to my eyes. I was not surprised, but I was gut-punched all the same. From my journal: “It is cancer. Invasive carcinoma. I have no idea what is to come. I do know that you are with me every step of the way. You did not shirk from your pain and suffering. Neither will I. With your grace I will meet this head on. With your wisdom I will make informed decisions. Hold my hand in this – as I know you will – and I will get through it all. You are my light and my salvation. I have nothing to fear.”